The Choices We Make = The Strength We Gain

Switch these phrases and the same rings true.

Every day I wake up and breathe in and breathe out. Some days, it feels hard. It feels like effort. Not because I don’t want to be up and breathing but because I seem to be conscious of every move I make and every thought I have.

I have been exhausted by 6pm almost every day for quite some time. I just want a nap. I’ve been searching for reasons why because I haven’t felt like I’ve been doing anything taxing. But I have.

My daily exhaustion lies in being strong.

The last year of my life has not been a walk in the park. I ended my marriage after being together almost ten years. I lost a job I loved. My house, almost literally, has fallen apart and been put back together. I am now raising my teenager as a single mom. I took a pay cut that made life a little harder. I started dating again. Without a doubt I could have caved in several times over and I don’t think anyone would have faulted me for it.

Being a strong, wholehearted person is no more difficult than making that decision. But, that is one hell of a hard decision.