Second Chances vs. Backsliding — Which is Which?

It’s actually pretty easy to tell

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We all know the reality of backsliding, though. It’s never different. It’s just the same bullshit at a higher dosage.

In the last year and a half I have performed the backsliding ritual twice, with two different guys. It looks like this: I become enamored with the guy. He treats me in a unacceptable manner. I get angry. He gets angry that I get angry. Gaslighting frequently occurs. We part ways. We come back together. Lather. Rinse. Repeat.

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Backsliding has left me with is an overwhelming distrust of my own judgment.

I seek to find the best in people and it often comes back to bite me in the ass. It’s easy to see someone’s intentions as we want to see them, not how they are. I’m working exceptionally hard on not doing this. It ain’t easy.

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Flaming pinball, nerd, music lover, wine snob, horrible violin player. No, I won’t stop taking pictures of my drinks. vanessaltorre@gmail.com IG: vanessaltorre

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