People Not Living Their Lives Are Aggravating Me

There’s no excuse and I’m tired of the ones they give.

Vanessa Torre

--

Photo by Masaaki Komori via Unsplash

I didn’t think it would be about this. I thought I was doing better. It turns out I have a whole other level of anger and I’ve just scratched the surface.

It’s common knowledge at this point that I unexpectedly lost one of my best friends a week ago. I’m having a real damn hard time with it for a multitude of reasons.

In every quiet spare moment, she comes to me. I force myself to replay our conversations because I am desperate to not forget what her voice sounds like.

Recently, her memory makes me angry. It’s not her but it’s people that don’t understand what it’s like to know life is precious and short and revocable.

I dated a guy off and on for well over a year. We’re still friends. We talk. My mom and I are currently visiting my sister 45 miles from him. All of us had planned a low key evening with wine and barbecue.

I invited him to come join us. Thought it would be nice. I can tell he entertained the idea but when I pressed him for answer, he declined. My disappointment was incredible.

--

--

Vanessa Torre

Top 10 feminist writer. Writing, coaching, and relentlessly hyping women in midilfe. linktr.ee/Vanessaltorre Email: vanessa@vanessatorre.com