Oh Jason, I am so sorry. I have been there. That is a. tunnel of darkness you were in. I see you’re still in but you are moving in the right direct and that is OUT.
I wish peace for you. I truly do. And know you’re not alone. I broke a mainline in my yard yesterday and had to figure out how to fix it myself. And I had no running water until I could fix it. And I couldn’t get it fixed. I and I was covered in mud and sweat and blue plumbers glue. And I sat on my knees in my front yard and sobbed. Just sobbed.
But I fixed it. And you’re going to fix you. It’s okay to be cracked. You’re not broken. Just cracked.
Lastly, this was beautiful.