I Erased an Entire Relationship

It’s gone and I can’t get it back.

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If I’ve learned one thing it’s that life always has one more punch left in her. She is relentless. She is quick. And she is indiscriminate.

This time, I found out I was dumped when I came back from dinner on a business trip to find I had been blocked on all social media by the man I was seeing.

The hard part is that it requires you run as fast and as far as your legs can carry you and this is hard when you’re tired and you have no idea in which direction to run.

I knew if I was going to get off the crazy train I would have to say that dozens more times until it sank in and acceptance grew out of it. Like big black fruit pit you bury deep but it cracks open and life springs out.

I felt an overwhelming sadness but not for the reason I expected I would.

I held on to him because I had held on to an idea that I had of what and who he was that wasn’t real.

I hit the button. I breathed a little sigh of relief. And I felt good. I actually felt relieved.

Flaming pinball, nerd, music lover, wine snob, horrible violin player. No, I won’t stop taking pictures of my drinks. vanessaltorre@gmail.com IG: vanessaltorre

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